Saturday, 5 January 2019

My Hopes and Wishes for You My Dear Daughter

Walk with me my baby girl,
Hold my hand as I am holding yours,
Feel the warmth of my fingers,
Listen to our heartbeats become one.

There are so many things I want to share,
But first, let's walk and feel the earth under our feet,
Let the cold breeze caress our faces,
Look up and see the blue and grey cloud hovering over us.

This life will be so many things to you, my beautiful girl,
And I wish I could shelter you all my life,
Protect you from all the nasty people that could ruin your happiness,
Who would leave scars in your heart, your soul,
Some might burden you with shame that you have to carry and answer for,
I wish I could.
I wish I could.

Thing is my love,
I can only tell you how to protect yourself,
Guard your feelings so it won't fall on the wrong ground,
Listen to your heart but make sure you bring your common sense with it,
Those two have to work together,
You are in danger if you let your feelings control you.

See the best in people,
Be nice,
Help those who need help,
Speak good of others,
Say sorry if you are wrong.
Don't ruin other people's happiness,
Never take what is not yours,
There are things that are not meant for sharing,
And remember,
You don't have to argue everytime you are right.
Pick your fight,
Some things are better left unsaid.
Control your demon so it won't control you.

While you do that, always remember that there are thorns on every rose,
Hold it carefully so it won't hurt you.
People would always judge you no matter what you do,
Let them be,
That is not your problem,
Just keep your path clean, and let them be.

There would be a time your world might collapse over you,
You would feel pain, your heart aches,
Tears wet your pillows,
They stream down your cheeks and won't let go.
Just cry my baby girl,
Let it flow,
Let the pillow wet it leaves horrible marks the next day,
Feel the pain, feel your heart breaks,
Come to me and share your misery as I would understand,
I walked that road too, remember?
And if I was no longer around,
Say a prayer for me and feel that I would always be there, holding you through.

There are so many things I want to say to you, my beautiful girl,
I might not be able to be with you as nobody lives forever,
But my prayers will always shower you all through your life,
Because He is, The Best of Protector.
I pray that you won't come to the crossroad where you have to choose,
But if you do, I hope you would choose the correct path,
I pray you won't commit the same mistakes I did,
For the pain and shame is heavy to carry to the grave.
May He forgive all my sins and protect you from them.

Whatever happens in your life,
If the world comes crashes under your little feet,
It is okay to cry and be sad for a while.
Then, wake up, wear your mistakes like an amour,
For nothing can hurt you anymore,
Stand up, collect all the pieces, build it once more,
For this, my love, makes you stronger and wiser, a little bit more.

Never let yourself drown in the misery, too long.
Your life worth more than that.
You, my daughter,
Worth more than rivers full of diamonds.
Are more valuable than a mountain of gold.

Don't let anything put you down,
I know you would be scared sometimes,
It is okay,
Just remember,
You are Maya Mathilde Khalisa,
You are my daughter,
My flesh,
My blood runs in your veins,
We are strong,
Life may defeat us once or twice,
But we rise and live on.


Saturday, 9 May 2015

Stormy and windy Spring...or is it summer now???

I have been going in and out of my blogspot trying to decorate the page and also to put all the blogger's links so that it'd be easier for me to visit. After few days, I am still lost. I can't just figure out on how to do that!! OMG, apa sudah jadi makcik.

Anyway, today the sun is so bright I feel i can just survive on solar power. One plan after another keeps popping up in my head. I should go and tidy up the flower beds outside. Maybe put in new flowers. The strawberry field needs to be cleaned up and replanted. The vegetable field also need TLC for new season. Planning to have potatoes, cabbage, beans and sunflowers there. The new garden furniture we bought last April is still standing on the balcony with no use. The weather has been bad. Storm after storm keeps it is so windy that the chairs were blown away. Have to ask the kids to go and pick them up.

So I excuse myself again for not going out to do all the things I should do. It is May and still it is not possible to do anything outside without freezing. The sun is shining but the wind...well, the wind is so cold we still have to put on our winter gear outside.

So today, I will only clean the house and arrange the kids bedroom. My eldest is now moving to his own room. Big boy already so he needs his space from his 2 younger brothers. So now the second one is sleeping with the youngest one instead. Both penakut. So they teman each other. These 2 boys, they see ghost everywhere, night and day. Drives me crazy sometimes...well, make it all the times...Elias is going around saying that there are lions everywhere. He freaks out even when the door is not close properly! Sometimes I wonder if these 2 boys have extra eyes that see things that I don't see. Anyway, regardless of how nice the sun is shining today, the wind does not allow me to do all the chores outside. Inside is the best place to be. I will command the kids to clean up and arrange their books and stuffs while I'm trying to imagine myself sitting on the beach of Kapas drinking coconut juice and eating kuih bom.

These pictures were taken in 2014 and 2013.

Thursday, 7 May 2015

Bebelan pertama dari North Pole

1st location : Sofa 10.30am Norwegian time

I'm desperately trying to jot down few lines here to show my support to #blogrevivechallenge while my youngest son is screaming *mama, see this.* *mama see that* *mama come here* every 2 seconds. I can't think. My head wants to explode. The only thing that comes up in my head is how to make him stop calling me for the next 10 minutes (like I can finish this in 10 minutes..daaa!) so I can write this piece!! * wait whatapps messages from my sisters keep coming updating me about the by election...* see, to write like this.

In this new home I will avoid writing about politics and religion...I have learnt my lessons well from the old blog I had. :) *wait, Little Elias wants me to watch him successfully flying his remote helicopter*... Ok. Errr...what was it again that I wanted to write before? hmmm don't remember..typical kan..*sigh* Tak kisah lah the main point is no more about politics. Nanti berdetup2 hati dan segala isi perut i. Spoil my mood je kan.

2nd Location : Kitchen 11.10am Norwegian time

Ok, still no idea on what more to write so I think it is best to write while I'm making dinner. Today will be ikan kod bakar. So buat sambal dulu. This is one of our favorites now. Once a week mesti buat. Kids pun suka..senang cerita msak apa yg depa suka kan..


Sambal almost masak. Layan Elias nak lunch pulak. Time flies. Satlg nak pi kerja pulak. Haiyaaa...owh btw, I am still a stay-at-home-mom, but with a permanent job at the school here working 2 hours everyday and a substitute at the kindergarten when they need me and I take it when it suits me. I can bring Elias along. Tu sebab i accepted the job. I'm also privately tutoring English to  a German boy and have my own cooking class (yalah sgt kan)..konon prasan chef wan haha. *eh jap ada call plak*

12.17 noon

Sambal dah masak. Elias dah mkn. I je yg belum mkn..megi dah habis..mgkin PAMA ada lg..kena korek almari dulu tgk apa yg ada. Kena mkn sebelum pi mgadap batalion askar kat sekolah. Takut nnt mkn budak2 pulak haha.

So kesimpulannya in this blog I will write about our lives here in Norway, our activities la or mungkin bila tiba nak raya kita cerita kuih raya dan lagu raya.

Here are some pictures of the kids visiting a cave nearby here. The cave was used during the Bronze Age as hunting cave. Since this area was quite populated during that time, we have found many graves. I will write about that next time.